Big Fat Negative

2 down, 1 clomid cycle left to go.

I never thought I would get so excited to get to pee on some sticks every morning but that seems to be what my life is about lately.

Its the anticipation of how many lines will come up and how dark they will be. Peeing on a stick has been so addicting that I even do it 2 or 3 times a day to compare the darkness of the lines from one hour to the next. Crazy I know.

Charting is now my job.

For someone trying to conceive this is your only hope that your body is doing what it is supposed to do, and timing is everything so you have gotta get it right.

For this month it looks like POAS will be at a stand still for 2 more weeks, after that I will know if all my efforts paid off.

I had an ultrasound today to check for cysts so I could begin my 2nd cycle of clomid. The great news is there were none, so the ones from last month went away! I am beyond happy!

I am also charting for my first month and bought a bunch of ovulation sticks online as well as some preseed.

Just pre-heating the oven

My husband and I have been TTC for almost 2 years now. For 6 months I have seen a fertility specialist and have started my first round of clomid this past month. As of now, I am not pregnant and am pretty much at a low point, which would explain this post.

I am really getting tired of reading all the mom blogs with pregnant ladies showing off their tummies and gushing about pregnancy, there are A LOT of them, so this post is not geared at anyone in particular. To someone who hasn’t been able to get pregnant it is depressing. I know I should not read them, but it is like anything else and I can’t look away. I suppose I am insanely jealous, but all I feel is irritated. Again I know that most of the blogs I read are MOM blogs, so of course this should be expected, but right now they are not that much fun to read anymore.

I never thought it would be this hard to get pregnant, especially since my daughter was so easy. I found out I have PCOS which is probably the main cause of my infertility.

Hopefully within the next 3 months I will have some good news as our insurance does not cover infertility treatments and we really don’t have that money to spend. The whole situation sucks. Infertility sucks.